Writing.

I have what you would call a “Love-Hate relationship” with writing. I love to think I like writing, and even somewhat good to some extent. I sit down to write, and often times my ADD kicks in before I finish, leaving quite a few unfinished projects. It wasn’t late in my life that I quickly realized this probably was not going to be my full time career as I grew older. So you can imagine my surprise when I started to feel God prompting me to start a blog. Not only do I have to complete every entry and have it make somewhat comprehensible, but other people are going to read this too. It was enough to send this very quiet, introverted girl into a anxiety attack. As soon as I felt like God placing this on my heart, I immediately began coming up with excuses on why not to do this. Like, “God, hate to break it to you but I really think you chose the wrong person for this assignment! I am really not qualified to be doing this. You could have picked someone who actually was confident in their writing skills.” I doubted and tried to show Him how wrong He was in choosing me because I am not qualified to do this kind of stuff, I am only 16. If only He could see how incapable I am of actually writing. But in the midst of trying to show Him I could not do this, that He chose the wrong person because of my failures, there is a soft whisper down in my heart that says, “Remember Moses.”

Moses. The one whom God spoke to about the nation of Israel and their suffering in the land of Egypt. After trying to help the Israelites though he ends up fleeing his home to Midian where he lives for many years. He creates a totally different life, away from his family, friends, and all that was familiar. Then one day while he is watching his flock, God speaks in the form of a burning bush. God tells him that He has hand picked Moses to go and lead the Israelites out of their suffering and bondage in Egypt.  As soon as God tells him the plan, Moses immediately starts making excuses, and questioning why God picked Him. He tells God all of his problems, and how incapable he was. And he was right, he was incapable, he had a lot of problems and fears. But God was not surprised by his reluctance, in fact He gives an answer to all of excuses of how He will work through Moses' problems.

But then when I think about it, I think that is why God picked Moses. because of his problems, fears, brokenness, and insecurities. God was about to teach Moses a very important lesson, that no matter how unqualified we feel, His power is greater. As God has proven this true over and over again in my life, He has shown me we have two choices;

Option one is, to believe the lies that we are too insignificant to be used by God. That we are incapable and unworthy to be used.

Or option two, believe that God will work through our weakness.

In 2nd Corinthians, Paul is telling the church in Corinth of what he has gone through since becoming a follower of Christ. He says that he begged God to take the pain of persecution away but every time God said,“My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness. So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me”.

Because the truth of it is, when He gets to work through our weakness, His name gets glorified.  One of my all time favorite authors and speakers David Platt says this, “God actually delights in exalting in our inability. He intentionally put His people in situations where they come face to face with Him.” Every Christian comes to one point in their lives where they know God is calling them to take action, to do this or that..etc. But the struggle is do we believe God's grace is sufficient to cover all our weaknesses.

It blows my mind to think that the One who created the heavens and the earth, everything we can see and can’t see, every detail of everything you can imagine and spoke it all into being choses to be glorified through my weakness. Stop and think about that for a moment. Because I think if we can just begin to grasp this, then we will begin to see things a lot differently. No longer do we see our weakness, we see opportunities for God to do incredible things in and around us. What if we all lived our lives like this? Not being afraid of how we aren’t good enough, but living our lives constantly saying “Yes” to what He has for us. This is one thing God has been teaching me lately, to never be afraid to what God is calling me to. Like accepting His calling on my life to go into missions/ministry, or leading in the middle school ministry at my church. These things are taking me out of my comfort zone and aren’t necessarily comfortable or easy. Even writing this, took some courage and trust knowing He’s got a plan for this.  Now this is going to look different in everybody’s life, but can you imagine what God could do through our obedience? What if the Church as a whole lived with this boldness, not only boldness but to live out Matthew 28:19-20, to defend and love the orphan, widow, refugee, Muslim, Atheist, the persecuted church, the people persecuting the church, unreached people groups and so many others. To live our lives in complete surrender to Him.

I found this quote by Katie Davis that I absolutely love;

“I have been learning this lesson for years, and I learn it anew in these pages: Our God, He can make baskets of bread out of tiny loaves we hand Him. He can make a life of glory out of our weak-kneed timid yes to Him.”

So with that I want to leave you with a question, What is God asking you to say “Yes” today? No matter how weak you may feel, will you say yes? Will you believe in the truth that He will equip you to be everything He wants you to be. His grace is sufficient to cover all weakness, no matter how big or small.

The story continues with Moses. He says yes to God's calling on his life, he ends up leading the Israelites out of Egypt and into freedom. He got to experience God first hand, watch Him provide for their every need every time, and see God perform incredible miracles. Moses wasn't always perfect, he had his moments of mess ups and insecurities, but he was confident in His grace. His yes changed a nation forever.

Abby Moore